we are not special

just taking a moment to allow myself to slip into the realm of “knowing” – that it’s too late.that our already short lives have been shortened even more.that suffering, untold & unimagined, exists here and will never be eradicated.that humanity … Continue reading

day 4 – venturing outside

tarantula, chilean rosehair, rose hair, grammastola rosea, moulting, tarantula moult, fangs, shedding her skin, nature, wildlife, companion animal, chupacabra, my love, furry child

date: sunday, march 22nd, 2020 time spent in isolation: 3 1/2 days how long it has felt: not very long actually, i have been super productive supplies: holding up – plenty of toilet roll, endless chocolate, but i do need … Continue reading

the end of days

candle, lighting a candle, self isolation, fire, spells, witchcraft, solitude, coronavirus, covid-19, flame, stuck in my house, making it cosy, flickering lights

sinking into self isolation like sap drips down down finding cracks and filling them unwinding in my home and living in it searching for soft spots and settling into them waiting is a game i try not to play – … Continue reading

a type of way

atlanta, high museum of art, edvard munch, madonna, eva mudocci, lithograph, paper, art, girl, woodruff arts center

“i love you in the morning when the blood runs to your cheeks. babe, you were the first thing and the last thing that i’d see. i was just a boy, striking matches upon your heart – i couldn’t get … Continue reading

molecular

best friends, soulmate, jessica and kelsey, the best person i know, beautiful, beautiful women, missing you, happy birthday, partner, friendship, sisters, my love, my future, crazy world

i don’t know how i found her. i don’t know if it was fate or some subconscious manifestation / spell casting on my part. all i do know is that what they say is right… when you know, you know. … Continue reading

honey, i want you

poetry, writing, coffee shop, london, memories, old loves, bob dylan, life changes, growing up, love, learning, exploring, relationships, daydreams, writer, little poems

i used to write poetry all of the time. it’s a rare occasion these days but when i do, it’s because i don’t have a choice – something is going on in my mind or i’m listening to music and … Continue reading

what is “day”

paltokitap, journaling, pen and paper, p'lto,hepimiz gogol'ün paltosundan çıktık, nikolai gogol, red and white, always with me, literature, tea, books, reading, writing, documenting travels, and a laptop

cabin crew life has arrived. continents, more cloud formations than i can count or hope to remember, the loss and gain of sunlight, hours, time or any normal perception of what the word “day” even means anymore. i consciously bid … Continue reading

“the outsider” by h. p. lovecraft

the outsider, h p lovecraft, short stories, horror, keats, warrior-guests, literature, howard phillips lovecraft

  Unhappy is he to whom the memories of childhood bring only fear and sadness. Wretched is he who looks back upon lone hours in vast and dismal chambers with brown hangings and maddening rows of antique books, or upon … Continue reading

four of swords

four swords, black and white, double bladed, sharp edges, medieval, weaponry, medieval swords, fantastical, tarot, four of swords, my armoury

well, my start date with the airline has been pushed back. not indefinitely, but for at least a few more weeks. after waiting such a long time, a few weeks doesn’t seem like much to fret about… but then again, … Continue reading