honey, i want you

poetry, writing, coffee shop, london, memories, old loves, bob dylan, life changes, growing up, love, learning, exploring, relationships, daydreams, writer, little poems

i used to write poetry all of the time. it’s a rare occasion these days but when i do, it’s because i don’t have a choice – something is going on in my mind or i’m listening to music and … Continue reading

what is “day”

paltokitap, journaling, pen and paper, p'lto,hepimiz gogol'ün paltosundan çıktık, nikolai gogol, red and white, always with me, literature, tea, books, reading, writing, documenting travels, and a laptop

cabin crew life has arrived. continents, more cloud formations than i can count or hope to remember, the loss and gain of sunlight, hours, time or any normal perception of what the word “day” even means anymore. i consciously bid … Continue reading

“the outsider” by h. p. lovecraft

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  Unhappy is he to whom the memories of childhood bring only fear and sadness. Wretched is he who looks back upon lone hours in vast and dismal chambers with brown hangings and maddening rows of antique books, or upon … Continue reading

four of swords

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well, my start date with the airline has been pushed back. not indefinitely, but for at least a few more weeks. after waiting such a long time, a few weeks doesn’t seem like much to fret about… but then again, … Continue reading

page of pentacles

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“hey, all you had to do was stay. all you had to do was stay. had me in the palm of your hand why’d you have to go and lock me out when i let you in. well it could … Continue reading

gonna go see the world

british airways, head on, cabin crew lifestyle, new opportunity, akbarali mastan, photo credit, airplane in the clouds, london heathrow, aviation, photography

i think that i will write again today, so that not all of my posts are gushing with heavy speculations and pent up reflections of life. at least, it seems like they all have been to me.   swooped vader off … Continue reading

eight of swords

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today i feasted on banana pancakes, made with love. today i met kit harrington, and perhaps i’m the one that knows nothing. today i committed to a daily routine of familiarising myself with my deck of major and minor arcana. … Continue reading

a smile short of laughing

johnny flynn, music video, screenshot, beautiful colours, sunset, sunrise, calm, raising the dead, sillion, new album, folk music, picking up the pieces, life changes, moving on, johnny flynn and the sussex wit, energy, starting over, painting, dangerous ladders

if i am ever to break my first bone or succumb to some final destination approved death by plummeting through a glass window, today will be that day. on this shifty ladder. over my disgust towards the current drapery. … it’s got to go. _ … Continue reading